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WINGING IT
We were asked to go on a trip with my son and his girlfriends family. They planned a family trip and a few people backed out and we were asked to filled the vacancies. At first I was a little hesitant, go figure I’m usually the one saying YES to everything, not this time. It…
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TAKING A RISK
A few months ago I was asked if I wanted to work and I told that person maybe. Then I thought about it and was this a path I’m supposed to be on? Is this a sign from above that I really should do this? Was I TAKING A RISK? Would it be beneficial to…
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HOLIDAYS
The HOLIDAY rolled in quick like the tide of the sea and disappeared just as quick. It didn’t snow here so it really didn’t feel like Christmas, but I guess with no decorations in the house and feeling out of sorts about the whole thing made it seem even less Christmassy. New Years was also…
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Painted Picture
Did you ever figurately paint a picture of what your life was going to be like? I did. It was a long time ago and I always wanted this big house with many rooms filled with children, so when they grew up and moved out they would still have a place to come home too.…
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LVAD STRUGGLES
My husband has had his LVAD for four years now and he still has to explain the struggles of everyday life to his friends and family. He looks good on the outside most days and that doesn’t mean he’s able to be his old self. This body he is living in isn’t the same and…
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FOUR YEARS
This Journey started FOUR YEARS ago, it’s a path no one should ever have to travel. We don’t want to be on it, we didn’t ask for this, but here we are traveling this path not knowing where it’s going to go each day. The twists and turns of this path makes life difficult sometimes.…
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MARRIAGE
Marriage today is not anything like it was centuries ago. Today most people cringe at the thought of marriage. I’m not sure what changed the whole value of the word, but it definitely is not the same when I was younger. Being married in this century is mostly about show. Well, at least in my…
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Ungrateful
This feeling of being UNGRATEFUL really overwhelmed me the last few months. Having to deal with a lot of uncertainty and seeing others getting more than what I felt they deserved made me so UNGRATEFUL. What a horrible place to be in and an awful way to feel. I truly felt I was going to…
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BOAT
Who knew that a BOAT could make a person smile and feel excited about life and scared all at once. He’s always wanted a bass boat. I love the water and always wanted to live on a lake. So we bought a bass boat to go out on the lake, best of both worlds right?…
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Back on Track
Most people wake up and know what to do and where to go. I wake up and just want an easier day. I want to make the most of the day and sometimes that a great barrier in our life. Wanting to do things and getting to do them are a struggle each day. We…
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Growing
My life was root bound and in desperate need for room to grow. I needed to repot my whole being, my life, my mindset and my whole world. I felt stuck in a small space with no where to go. I needed to be cultivated and replanted. I needed uprooting spiritually, mentally, physically and emotionally.…
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LIGHT
Well my rant and complaining on the last post was a little unnecessary because all the tests came back negative. The polyp was precancerous and could possibly turn into cancer in the future. As for now we are at a stand still on the throwing up. It’s not happening as much but he is still…
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NO END
I’m sure this is just me complaining as usually and maybe I shouldn’t but, I feel there is NO END to the medical issues that keep coming up. When one thing is working another thing goes haywire. The stress of all the issues I’m sure are not helping at all. I try not to stress,…
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GOLDEN YEARS
These are the years we heard our parents and grandparents talk about. These are the years they said we should enjoy our lives. The GOLDEN YEARS were something to look forward too. I’m not sure I’ll ever tell my kids to enjoy their GOLDEN YEARS. I’m going to tell them to live now while you’re…
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Back Burner
If you are a caregiver to a person with an illness that requires a lot of doctor’s appointments, lab visits and constant care, you usually put your own health on the back burner along with everything else. It just a selfless act that you do and nothing else matters but the care of your loved…
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Lost in the Shuffle
The blood work was done, the hemoglobin is still low but he is being pushed aside. Ever since he turned down the heart transplant I feel he has been LOST IN THE SHUFFLE. Call me crazy but nothing seems emergent anymore. It’s like he just here to survive and nothing more. This statement is true…
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BLANKET
I saw this video and it hit home for me. This man was talking about showing emotion and being there for a spouse. It was as simple as wrapping up with a blanket. When you wrap up with a blanket it makes you feel warm and comfy. If you are feeling down, depressed, sad or…
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True Love – By Kristine Baer
Walking the path in my life Challenges coming with strife Meeting the needs of everyone Weight on my shoulders, it’s a ton Seeing the future is not so bright Death is coming to light Positive vibes I try to emit Negativity comes in and I take a hit Knocks me to my knees Opens my…
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Last Day of the Year
It’s the LAST DAY OF THE YEAR, most are excited and ready to celebrate. I’m not happy it’s over, where did the days, the months, the whole year go. It vanished so quickly that I don’t remember enjoying it. As we get older the days slip by and fade away quicker than ever. If you…
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More Tests
Walking into that hospital for yet another appointment. It feels so unreal at times and here we are doing the same thing over and over. We sat there in silence waiting on the doctor knowing that MORE TESTS would be inevitable. We want this fixed, we want Joe to feel better, we want him to…
Unconditional Love 