Unconditional Love

Did you ever have to cut TOXIC people out of your life and it was the hardest decision you ever had to make? Been there, done that! Everyone thinks it’s so easy to do, but in reality it’s a struggle each day. Did I do the right thing? Why do they play victim to the hurt THEY caused? Should I just suck it up and give them YET another chance? Is my emotional well being worth trying to work things out? Are they ever going to change? Forgive and forget most people say, it will make you feel better. Well the forgiving and moving on is easy, the forgetting how you were treated is a whole different story.

There came a time in my life that enough was enough. I decided to distant myself from the toxicity. My world was at peace, there was no drama, I didn’t have to walk on eggshells and it was much easier not to deal with any of it and just go on with my life. Cutting them out was something I had to DO to bring back happiness and joy to my world.

My guard is up, my walls are built it took years to stop the toxins and now as we embark on this journey and we know life is too short, I WAS going to knock down the walls. I was ready to let go of the past and hope that time had healed them as it had me. But the lies are being told, I’m being blamed once again, the drama has not stopped and my walls are staying up for now and their behavior is not going to get the best of me this time.

The anger, resentment, sadness, guilt and just the grief I went through after I walked away lead to contentment. My life is content, I’ve found joy with just my husband, my three kids, my four grandkids, my close friends and a few family members. They are my happiness and NO ONE will ever take that from me. I’m at peace with my life and praying for their peace, is ALL I can do right now.