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Good Morning
The birds are chirping, it rained last night and my hubby is still sleeping. Drinking my coffee and listening to the sounds of nature is calming to my soul. It is more quiet than usual today, not sure why. Maybe everyone is sleeping in due to the Stay Order, maybe it’s Sunday and it’s a…
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Driving
Went out DRIVING yesterday we just stayed in the car, but it sure was a strange drive. We drove to a local state park and while driving we had the radio on and the windows down a little, no one was on the roads in the park and as we were driving it became really…
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Watching
As I sat here today during this ‘Stay Order’ we have going on, I was WATCHING my husband. He is still frail and looks very old today. It truly saddens me that he is not the same anymore. I’ve found myself crying secretly over this several times a week. I know crying isn’t going to…
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Normal
I hope this is not the NORMAL we are all going to feel from now on. I know my wants sometime out weigh my needs but, I WANT to go camping, I WANT to take my grandkids to fun places, I WANT to go to Disney World again. I WANT to feel NORMAL. I know…
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Enough
This is a rant about what’s happening in this world right now, so if you don’t want to read about my opinion on this Corona BS then keep scrolling. Corona Virus is a flu bug and that’s all. It’s been blown way out of control. I am not going to stop living because the media…
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Virus
Living my life in this slow hell, Is Virus real or fake I can’t tell. I ain’t found toilet paper in three dam days. Been fueling up on antibiotics and vitamin C, Wish there was a safe place I could be. Oh Lord I wonder if it will come my way. I locked myself away…
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Music
While I was listening to the radio a song came on and it sparked a memory. Have you ever hear a song and it takes you back in time. Takes you to a place in your mind that bring a smile to your face and heart. There’s a few songs that do that for me.…
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Content
Being CONTENT is one of the hardest things to accept in life. Are you CONTENT with your life? Can you be CONTENT with what you were dealt no matter what it is? Are you always looking for bigger and better things to happen? Do you wish your life was different? Do you question everything little…
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Signs
When someone passes away do you look for SIGNS that they are still around? Do you smell their cologne? Do you notice things were moved? Do you feel their presence? It’s hard to explain but somehow I am able to see the person who has passed away, it’s usually at the funeral home when the…
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Torn
Did you ever feel TORN about anything in your life? I have and it’s a struggle each day to glue the pieces back together. When you’re TORN in so many aspect of life it can really make it difficult to bring things back into prospective. It makes it hard to decide what is right or…
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Flowers
Flowers are an expression of love. Today as I arranged a bouquet for our expression of love it brought me to my knees and tears to my eyes. I had to walk away from the arrangement for a moment. I had to leave the flowers lay on the floor. I didn’t know how I was…
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Death
It’s a very heart wrenching five letter word. DEATH is never easy for anyone especially if it’s your loved one. The death of a child or a young person is especially difficult to deal with, it makes you questions everything God has in store for all of us. I have been witness to a lot…
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Settled In
We have finally SETTLED IN with this new life we have to lead. Our finances are finally on track, Joe is feeling better, we are used to the LVAD as a part of our day, we are hanging out with friends again and life is good. We are finally retired and I’m okay with our…
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Happiness
Today I read a quote about HAPPINESS and it really hit home for me. “HAPPINESS is the consequence of personal effort.” Now a lot of people believe that their happiness is the cause of others. Well, I do not believe that. I believe you alone are in control of your happiness. If you don’t like…
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No Words
Sitting here in the silence of the morning as I usually do and pondering over what to write about, two words that come to mind are NO WORDS. The tears are falling down my cheeks for a mother that lost her adult child to a horrible disease. My tears are falling because I want to…
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Good News – Bad News
Scared, nervous, on edge and arguing because of these emotions. The appointment was at 1:00 pm, of course we are up early because lack of sleep. Not only are we thinking about the procedure but also about our niece who is in the fight of her life and the outcome is something no parent should…
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Heartbeat
While Joe was in the hospital waiting for the decision on his LVAD he was getting a lot of tests done. One test he got a lot of was EKG’s. After the last EKG before the LVAD I asked the tech for part of his strip with the HEARTBEAT. Then after the LVAD was placed…
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Tomorrow
As we sit here thinking about TOMORROW and the procedure that Joe has to have, it scares the hell out of us both. We know it has to be done, it’s just the risks that come with it, has us both on edge. Hopefully they will have some answers for us and everything will go…
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Positive
How can you stay POSITIVE in such a negative world? For the last two days I have been trying to keep my husband positive, I’ve been trying to stay positive myself but it is so hard when the negativity surrounds you. I’ve been telling Joe that if he starts to think more on the positive…
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Home
Although I love being in my daughter’s Happy Place it sure is good to just sit in my HOME. I love my HOME and this little house makes me happy. It’s not the best house, it’s not flashy, it’s small and I don’t care it’s my Happy Place! When we decided to just give up…
Unconditional Love 