Unconditional Love

This post is something I didn’t really want to be typing about, but here it is. My friend lost her battle with cancer on November 11th. She chose a path of immunotherapy to fight the lung cancer. The immunotherapy was ultimately the reason she isn’t with us today. From the first treatment, I knew in my heart that is was not going to help her situation any and I wish she would of listen to me. It was literally killing her and I was watching as she chose to do this to herself.

I fully understand it was her decision and she thought it was going to prolong her life. She wanted to live and she thought this was going to help. In all reality it was killing her faster than the cancer would of, it was not a good option and in the end she knew in her heart she had made a mistake. I wish I could of gotten through to her stubborn ass, but she wanted full control with no input from anyone. I get it, but I don’t.

Her death took a toll on a lot of people, including me. Made me open my eyes to the possibility of my kids witnessing their parents death, dealing with all that’s left behind, picking up pieces of broken hearts and living without us here. It made it ever so real because we are getting older and ultimately we all are called to the Lord at some point and the thought of me not being here with my kids and grandkids has sadden me in a way.

I’m trying to make memories, take time for all of them and just be present in their lives no matter what. Home is where the heart is and I hope that when they look back on our lives in the future, they can all say that Memaw and Pappy were home. That we created a home filled with love and that we loved them unconditionally. Life really is too short, enjoy this Home while you can.