Unconditional Love

Time Away

This weekend I got TIME AWAY for a few days from my caregiving life, from my husband. I know it was much needed and I enjoyed myself, but he was missing from the pictures, he was missing from my bed, he was missing out. I realized that I don’t need TIME AWAY I need time with him, he needs to be with us and we need to make memories with him.

Although he doesn’t see it that way, he sees what everyone else does and he wants me to enjoy myself and go back to normal. He wants me to get my TIME AWAY and be free of taking care of him, I don’t know that I can do that. Taking care of him is what I need and it gives me purpose while he is still here. This time away gave me a glimmer of what is coming and I don’t like it, not one bit. The reality has sunk in now and that TIME AWAY has opened my eyes.

Even though my eyes are wide open, I want them shut again. I don’t want to see the future without him, I don’t want him sick, I don’t want to see him gone from our pictures and I don’t know how to do it alone. Nothing prepares you for this TIME AWAY but TIME AWAY. It makes you look at the whole picture and gives you the reality of the life ahead. I need to be in the present and focus on the day to day.

TIME AWAY is now TIME TODAY.