Unconditional Love

There I was amongst some strong faith based followers of God listening to the pastor preach and I started to think back to my youth and how going to church never moved me. I wondered why, when I know we attended church. We were students in a Catholic school. We had religion class, but it never captured my interest until recently.

I’ve opened the Bible and read from it several times and for several years I waited for God to speak to me like some people say he has, but it never happened. Was I doing anything wrong? Did I not try hard enough? Why didn’t I get moved by the Holy Spirit?

I lost all FAITH that he was even real. I didn’t turn to God for much during my life. Is that terrible or do some people just drift through life not even thinking about this. I sent my kids to a private school for a few years and when we couldn’t afford it anymore they went to a public school. We didn’t raise our kids with the Lord but they knew about him.

As I look back most of my friends that I made along the way really didn’t attend church. They believed in God but didn’t believe in going to church. My husband’s family, well some of them went to church and on Holidays we would go with them that was the closest thing to religion we had in our life. This was just the way it was and we didn’t think twice about it.

As I sat in church on Sunday and listened to the pastor and he put all his FAITH in God and he preach the words to the congregation and they sat still soaking in all he had to say and the silence in the church was overwhelming, but I heard the voice in my ear and for the first time I was moved by his words.

FAITH he said is what you need to bring you up from the root of all evil and you will find the calmness you long for. Calmness? Yes I am looking for that, how did you know? Well of course you knew, I just needed FAITH to see that. Now I’m not a born again Christian but I have a new sense of what I need to do for me and having FAITH is my solace in this dark time.

I’ve attended this church several times and felt the love there and wasn’t really ready to change my religion. What does it matter what religion you are as long as you find that FAITH that will make you want to be better and serve God better. It’s not the religion that will save you, it’s the FAITH you have in God that will.

For now I will continue to attend and make this my place of worship. For now I have FAITH because the words moved me, for now I’m ready to receive Jesus as my Savior and for now I want to be a better person and I hope i continue to be blessed. Thank you to the pastor that delivered the words, I have restored my FAITH.

John 3:16

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.