Unconditional Love

I can remember about twenty four years ago I felt ANGER to pit of my soul. I had never experienced such anger and I had no idea how to stop this emotion. I was angry at the world. I was angry at life. I was angry at everything and everyone. My life was on a downward spiral and the anger had consumed me.

It took several years and a psychiatrist to help me get ahold of myself and this anger. I hated the feeling of being angry all the time, I hated that my life was changing, I hated that my husband may die and I hated that I felt this way. I was young, I blamed God, I didn’t understand why bad things were happening to us and most of all I didn’t understand ME.

Now twenty four years later I’m faced once again with my life changing, not knowing if my husband will live and yet more ANGER than anyone could possibly imagine. This time I turned my whole heart and soul to God. I pray, I meditate, I hope, I have faith and I love the best I can. The ANGER seeps out at times and I want to scream, break things, give up and fly the white surrender flag.

I know that I cannot give up so, I close my eyes and say a pray and clear my head and thoughts. I try my best to control ANGER. I’ve been reading a lot of useful info on how to not get ANGRY! If something or someone sets me off, I remove myself from the situation, go for a walk or just cry.

The knowledge I’ve acquired throughout the years has really help me accept whatever life has to give me. I try to find joy in most of my situations. I’ve learned that getting ANGRY isn’t always the answer. I’ve learned that laughter is the best medicine. I’ve learned to love more and I’ve learned that God has a plan and no matter what it may be, it’s the best plan he has for me.

If you are carrying around ANGER, get rid of it now. Learn to enjoy life no matter what your situation may be. There’s always a light at the end of the tunnel, you just have to be willing to look beyond the darkness and find that light. Turn your ANGER into joy, you have the power.