Unconditional Love

Are we truly living? I’ve been asking myself for a while now. Is what we are doing really living? My mind thinks it is but my soul is wanting more. I want to explore, I want to enjoy everything there is in this journey of life we were given. I want to feel alive. I know our time is limited and now is the time to wake up and just start living.

As easy as it may seem to most, it has been a struggle each and every day. How do you keep convincing someone to get out and enjoy life when their life has been sucked out of them. This LVAD hasn’t been easy for my husband. He’s alive because of it, but he’s become afraid to just go out and start living. Keeping him optimistic is now my every day living. This is by far the toughest life struggle I’ve had to face.

We want to do more each day, we want to live life to the fullest with no regrets, we want to enjoy living. There’s so much we want to do, but we can’t because of the LVAD. We see most people getting up and doing things without a care in the world. If we want to go anywhere we have a long list of things we have to do before we go and that alone frustrates him and discourages him from wanting to do anything. This is now how we live.

Living to him is waking up each morning and he’s still alive, well that’s all part of living. But to enjoy life and experience life no matter what, that’s living. I need to help him get to that point and then the Living will begin.