As I sat here today during this ‘Stay Order’ we have going on, I was WATCHING my husband. He is still frail and looks very old today. It truly saddens me that he is not the same anymore. I’ve found myself crying secretly over this several times a week. I know crying isn’t going to change this whole situation, but it’s the only thing helping release my anger.
As the days have turned into weeks, weeks turned into months and now coming upon a year that all this began I’m still not sure what the outcome will eventually be. Will he get a new heart one day? Will his stomach ever be healed? Will he ever stop throwing up? Will he ever become strong again? Will he ever be the man I used to know? All these questions and many more have entered my thoughts everyday. All the answers are still no where to be found.
It scares the hell out of me most days, but I’m strong and I’ve learned to accept all of this. But WATCHING him like this gets hard sometimes and helping him getting better is my life goal right now. We will beat this, we will get stronger and until then I will be WATCHING over him with all my being. I love you Joe!
Unconditional Love 
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