Unconditional Love

Flowers are an expression of love. Today as I arranged a bouquet for our expression of love it brought me to my knees and tears to my eyes. I had to walk away from the arrangement for a moment. I had to leave the flowers lay on the floor. I didn’t know how I was going to finish arranging them without crying the whole time.

These FLOWERS are for a funeral that should not be happening, the FLOWERS are for Amanda our twenty-nine year old niece that passed away. Amanda had made it known that when she passed she wanted the church to be filled with flowers. When we heard this we knew we needed to help. Jaime went and bought some bouquets, I bought some and we put them all together and made three beautiful arrangements to help honor her wishes.

We brought the FLOWERS to the church, as I pulled up I didn’t know if I could go inside, I didn’t want to get out off the car, I wasn’t ready for this. I felt guilty for not seeing her when she was sick. I felt so bad that we haven’t been in her life like we should of been. We didn’t get to see her before she died and it was tearing at my heart and soul. Why did this have to happen to her? Why did she have to die? There are a lot of WHYS in this whole scenario that will never be answered.

My nephew was there to open the door and as I went in I was thankful that no one was there but him so I could compose myself. I focused on just carrying in the flowers and not falling apart, there were already several arrangements in the front of the church. The FLOWERS that were there represented the LOVE for her and it was heartwarming, it made me smile. The FLOWERS are not going to take away the pain, but they will bring a smile to your heart knowing that everyone who sent them made this happen just for her. Through the sadness the FLOWERS will bring JOY.

Hug your loved ones today and cherish them each day you have them with you, life is too short. Rest in Peace Amanda you were truly loved by all.