Unconditional Love

Did you ever feel like you didn’t have a purpose in life? Well, I have a few times and it hit me to the very core of my soul. When my kids were younger, I had a purpose in life. I was their mom and they needed me. I know as a mom your kids will always need you in some way, but as they grew older they didn’t really need me as much. That’s the first time I felt I didn’t have a purpose in life. Like I wasn’t needed anymore. It wasn’t true, but at the time that’s how I felt.

I didn’t know what I was going to do, or how I would feel like there was a purpose to my life. That’s when I started to volunteer at their school. At first it was just to make signs for the volleyball team my daughter was on. I made signs each week and on game day I would go and put the signs on their lockers. The cheerleaders did it for the football team and the basketball team and I felt it would boost the girls up and make them smile. It was my purpose.

Then my son started high school and joined the football team. That’s when my purpose became a little more needed. The new coach needed volunteer moms. Well, I wasn’t working at the time and needed a purpose, so why not. I then became Head of Football Operations, well that was a made up title that seem to fit at the time because that’s exactly what I did. I washed uniforms, assigned and kept track of all the equipment, hung uniforms in the locker room on game day, painted the numbers and the Trojan Head on the field each week, help with game day meals, prepared and served breakfast and lunch for the two-a-day practices in the summer, coordinated with the parents for donations, helped with fund raisers, made sure all the coaches had their gear on game day, took students to get physicals when their parents couldn’t and that’s just to name a few. When I was lost and needed a purpose this team needed me and it brought joy to my life for almost eight years. This was also my purpose.

Then my job as a school bus driver came to an end because the school privatized the bus yard and I chose not to work for the private company, that’s when I was given another purpose in life. I was given grandchildren and my daughter needed me and I needed them. I help care for the kids so she could work at the school and be with my grandson as he started kindergarten. She needed to be there for him and I needed to be needed once again. My heart was filled with so much love, they were my purpose.

Now, Joe is my purpose. He always was my purpose but I never really felt needed by him all these years. I know he loves me but I guess I just never felt needed until now. It’s hard to explain but that’s how I felt. My purpose now is to make sure my husband lives. I think this is the greatest purpose someone could ever have. I’m needed and without me he said he probably wouldn’t be here. I’m his reason to live and I need to be his PURPOSE to stay focused.

When I need a PURPOSE in life it’s because I just have to feel needed and wanted. I think that’s why I put my whole heart into my purpose so it makes a difference in at least one person. Find your PURPOSE, make a difference and be the best you ever. I read a quote the other day and it said, “God didn’t add another day in your life because you needed it, he added another day because someone out there needs you,” Be a person someone needs or wants. Find your PURPOSE.

P.S. Thanks Jeanne for giving me an idea on something to write about. Love you.