Unconditional Love

PRAYING is easier said than done sometimes. I was at a place a long time ago when I prayed every night and ask for love, protection and well being. I needed God to show me the way. I needed peace in my life back then and couldn’t find it. Joe and I were just embarking on our thirties and we had been married at this point for seven years. Our marriage was not doing well, Joe was very hard to live with when we were younger. I prayed every night that things would get easier.

As I felt our marriage failing and the love just didn’t seem to be there from him, I decided that it was best if we got divorced and went our separate ways. I didn’t tell Joe how I felt because our anniversary was coming up and I wasn’t going to leave on the day we were married. Staying felt wrong, leaving felt wrong, nothing was right and I was torn. I kept praying and even though I didn’t see it at the time, God answered my prayers for me.

On November, 6, 1996, Joe was admitted to the hospital and diagnosed with cancer. I know now, that this day, was the day God answered my prayers and gave me my sign that I was to stay with Joe and keep my vows sacred. It was a hard lesson to learn. I was angry with God for a long time. I didn’t want to keep PRAYING anymore. I didn’t see the light at the end of this tunnel, all I seen was darkness. Fortunately, through this dark time we worked our marriage out. Joe’s sickness changed us all. We became stronger and we fell in love with each other again. God had given me what I had prayed for all along.

I started PRAYING again, I started to love our life together and I knew we would be okay. Through the years leading to now, we have been through so much. Life was not perfect, we still had our ups and downs, we would argue, disagree and constantly challenge each other. Most things that would of torn any couple apart were making us better and here we are today facing even a bigger challenge and I would never ever want to be anywhere else. I’m glad I prayed, I’m thankful God answered my prayers and I’m truly blessed to be Joe’s wife through the good and the bad. I’ll never stop PRAYING.