Unconditional Love

I was asked about why I started a BLOG and what do I get out of it? Well, I needed a canvas for this journey that we were given. I needed an outlet to put my thoughts and emotions into words. I never thought of myself as a writer, even though many people have told me to write my stories and sell them. I have so much that has happened in my lifetime and it’s filled with a story, but not sure who would want to buy them. This BLOG helps me cope through this time of my life. Gives me my “ME TIME” that isn’t always available most day.

As I have said in an early post, I get up two hours before Joe on most days and sit in my chair with my coffee and I needed to put my thoughts down so I started to type on a blank sheet and I was just going to keep my journal private. I wanted my thoughts down so maybe one day my kids or grandkids could read all about the love I have for Joe and how I was willing to be 100% committed to him. Well, I joined a few caregivers sites on Facebook to be with others like me, but as the days went on and the more I read on the Facebook site the more depressing it became. I didn’t want to feel negative about being a caregiver, I loved my husband and I didn’t want to complain about caring for him. I wanted people to know the journey and that it’s hard but in the end it’s the LOVE you have for each other that will get you through to the next day.

So I researched blogging and talked to a few people (a BIG THANK YOU to Elizabeth), I decided that maybe I needed to share my thoughts as a caregiver. Maybe I needed this “ME TIME” to release my thoughts. Maybe this BLOG will help people see that caregiving is hard but it doesn’t have to be “HELL” like most of the caregivers were saying on Facebook. As of today, I have only shared with a few close friends and family members and not sure if I’m ready to share with everyone just yet. But it’s out in the public for viewing and writing on here gives me the strength to go on with my day. It calms my soul, it gives me purpose. it that makes sense.

Just so that everyone knows, I’m not comparing my life to anyone else who is dealing with this LVAD, I’m just writing how we are living our life with the LVAD. If you make the worst of your situation, it will always feel like that. If you make the best of your situation, only the best will arise from it. We were scared, we were not ready for all of this, but here we are making the BEST of it everyday. Joe is alive and I’m strong enough to do what I have to do. Enjoy life, enjoy your love one, be positive and learn something new everyday. We are all here for a reason and the path we are walkin, it’s up to you to make your path enjoyable. It’s up to you to embrace what you were given. So that’s why I BLOG and I hope it changes the mind of just one person for the better.